It took me awhile to understand that not everyone has a place in our table. It is sort of inevitable that some people need to be loved from a distance.
It is nice to be surrounded by good people who encourages you to grow and makes you feel even better. A healthy dose of respect and appreciation also speak volumes of your standing in the circle. Personally I think it will do a lot of goodness to your self esteem and a must for self care.
Do not underestimate the impact of the circle you are in. Please remind yourself that the connections you have; whether it is a relationship or friendships needs to be built with the right foundation. Let it be for the greater good, of quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, the ones that spark joy and love around you.
We have made poor decisions and lessons learned. Don't fret, perhaps it was for the best during that point of time. Moving forward, we have to decide to make better choices in life. Now, don't you think that it is easier for you to decide as in who gets to sit at your table of life. I never knew until late that it is up to you... who and what you let in it.